Uh, I don't know. I wouldn't say desperation, but there is a level Of it. It's more of a will a will to want to succeed branch out from The work that i've been doing like really hard jobs. I want to be here for my My wife and my daughter coming into this world And I want to give them the best opportunity that I can give them while working as hard as I can and just trying to Be the best me, you know, um i'm, very motivated I'm, very dedicated and I just I do need this