okay honestly if you ask my boss my current boss what you'd what did I do that drives him or her crazy they probably would say let me think about this I think she would say that I have a habit of sending a message or you know expressing a concern of mine and if I don't hear back within a certain amount of time I tend to delete the message so I'll take it away I'll just be like I'll figure it out on my own and then like when you know something happens and we we talk about it and I'm like well you know I reached out to you about so and so cuz I needed some help or you know that I and I didn't want to disturb you I just didn't feel like I wanted to bother you or just feel like I was a hassle so I just deleted the message and she would go like oh my gosh Amanda you can't do that Amanda's my middle name you can't do that you know I'm busy but give me your messages you know so I would think that would be her thing like I I would get to the point where I would go and ask for help and then like if I don't get a response within a certain amount of time I'll just try to figure it out my own I think that's because I'm a very independent person so I don't like to go to people for help anyway it feels like I have to put my pride aside to go to ask for help so you know when I'm going to ask for help and it's like I'm feeling like you know the messages are sitting there or whatever like that I kind of feel like okay well maybe I'm getting on their nerves or maybe I'm just doing too much and I'll just take the message back but that's what she was saying